A Geekish View of Life

OMG! I just saw the strangest cell phone. Or cutest . . . depends on your definition. Anyway this chixor had a cell phone that looked like a compact! It was all small and round and everything. The only thing missing was the powder and mirror. Yeah. Random. Later all!

Humans are the strangest creatures on the planet. We are the only creature that can act contrary to our nature. A wolf cannot stop being a wolf. The wolf can be tamed, as we now have dogs, but he doesn’t stop being a wolf at heart. The instincs that we prize in dogs are the instincs that make a wolf one of the world’s best predators. Fish aren’t anything other than fish. Sure some of them have odd ways of getting around, like the mud skipper, but they are still fish. The more you look around the more obvious it is. Everything around us works and lives according to its nature. Humans are the only creatures that seem to fight it.

And we wonder why we are so stressed about the future and the meaning of life. Strangely enough we actually have a pretty good idea of what we are and what we are supposed to do. Our instincts maybe flawed but are not wholely wrong. When we see someone hurting we try to make them feel better. When someone is in need we want to give. When people are happy we are happy with them. And if we were wolves or trees or something like that we would fine. But no. We’re humans and throughly fsked in the head and we keep trying to do the exact of what it takes to make us happy.

We work like a dog to buy things, that are ultimately worthless and meaningless not to mention not going to make us happy, only to whine, bitch and complain about how unhappy we are. The we go back to work and repeat the cycle. No other animal on the planet does this! None of them are that stupid! They know they are what they are and they are okay with that. We are dissatisfied mostly because we think we are dissatisfied. And there is nothing stronger than the human mind’s ability to lie/deny to itself. So we all need to get off our little pity piles, let go of our petty thoughts of what we want and try to be happy! If you let go of things it makes life much easier to take. That means bitterness, happiness, and sadness.

Yes, let happiness go. If you chase after it or hold on to it, it will become cold, hard and probably even bitter. Happiness is one of those gifts that gives back when it is given away. Thus in the end both are happy. In fact they are happier than when they started. Everyone wins! Try it.

::climbs down off soap box:: That is all go live your lives. Take care.

I’m totally geeking out here! I got a Gmail account! That’s right! Google’s new mail service! I got an account! I’m a beta tester! w00t! I’m such a dork. But this is soooooo cool! I’ve always wanted to be a beta tester for something . . . and this something could be huge! A whole frigging gigabyte of space?! And the new search feature looks way sweet! If you’re interested in this I will try to keep posting impressions of it. If you want to encourage me to use it more and maybe actually get good at this e-mail thing you can e-mail me: geekosupremo(a)gmail.com. Just put the at @ sign in the right place.

Okay Peace everyone. I have to get back to writing my P.O.S. anthropology paper. Ick.

Email me please. Just for kicks if nothing else. ^_~

Spam sucks, and spam that cirumvents your filters by using l33t in the title are insidious. The bastards. OMG! I am so angry at them right now. Stupid stupid spammers! Errrrgh! ::anger and venom spat on the spammer::

It’s is kinda funny. When I started this it was very much about tech and the internet and my geekness. Now it’s all . . . different. I think I’ve hardly mentioned tech in the past few weeks. Even my iPod got eclipsed! I never saw that coming. Not that the iPod is the single greatest thing ever, but it comes pretty close. 20 gigabytes of AAC and MP3 goodness! It’s smaller than a deck of cards and it’s lighter than 2 CDs with jewel cases! It doesn’t get much more l33t than that. Well then there’s the 40 gig model. But that’s not all. If you get the media card reader you can use your iPod as a digital wallet! Yeah! Never have a full digital camera memory card again! Well at least not for long. Muwahahahahaha! *ahem* Now I am beginning the huge, okay so it’s just moderate, task of digitizing my CD collection. w00t! Or should that be suXorz? Eh. Either way it’s good in the end. I can take my tunes with me! Yay!

Ugh. Now I have to go be all productive and stuff. Have to write a 8 page paper due Monday. Hurray. Stupid Anthropology class. Meh.

Take care all.

Just got back from hanging out with my college group from church. All I can say is that I’m a frigging moron. I went the wrong way on the highway and didn’t realize it till I was in Fremont. >.The Punisher later. Sleep now. Take care.

Just got back home from The Punisher, more on that later, and a little cuddle time, more on that later. But now sleep is the order of the hour. Take care all.

I feel strangely hollow inside right now. Like I’ve missed something . . . maybe someone. ::sigh:: I am so friggin’ pathetic. Not even 24 hours and I feel like this. What kind of crap is that? ::puts large “loser” sticker on forehead:: When did this happen? Oh wait I know this one, March 30th. That was the turning point. Now a mere eighteen days later my gut level is saying “Dood. Wher3z d4 cut3 chiXXor?” (Translation: My Friend, where is the attractive young lady of your affection?) And I can tell you . . . well actually sorta. I don’t have her street address, but I can tell ya how to get there. Blah. I might get to see her tomorrow, but that doesn’t change the fact that I want to see her now. ::sigh:: Sad, sad, sad. Eighteen days and you’re a whimpering little fool. >.

Yes, it is a strange title. But consider the source. Anyway let’s begin.

Last night as I was coming home from school, I was staying late to work on my painting, I caught the opening to Love Line. Normally I skip the show because it’s not my cup of tea. Yes, they provide a service, but I think the internet can be just as useful. But then again I spend alot of time on the internet and have a pretty good method to determining the info from the crap. But that’s off point. Anyway the guys were harping about these new fat free or reduced calorie foods. Their basic stance is that if you have a weight problem, fat free foods aren’t going to solve it. I was “Yes! There are people out there who don’t buy into this ‘fat free’ crap!” Because it is crap. Fat free is lame. I have tried them and they suck. There is no flavor, no body, nothing to savor or enjoy. ICK! I’ll take my food at full load and just do the senesable thing, eat when I’m hungry and stop when I’m satisfied. It’s a simple concept that has done wonders for my figure. (wakka wakka wakka) So don’t buy the lie! Fat free = Flavor free! Eat with sense and exercise and you’ll do fine.

Friends. I love you all. You are very encourageing to me. Thank you all sooooooooooooooo much! ::hugggggggggggs:: You guys are the greatest, no really!

Cuddles. ::sigh:: I admit I’m rather a cuddle whore. I never knew I was, but that’s also becuse I never really got cuddles before. ^_______________________________________^ They’re so nice. I don’t understand why guys steropically don’t like them? What’s not to like? Anyway I drove my friend back to her place, because I wanted to spend more time with her . . . and hopefully get cuddles. ^^;; Well I did. Heehee. *Ahem* Guys, girls tend to like cuddles, so do it. They’re more fun than you think . . . or maybe it’s just me. Either way give it a shot. You may find that things go better with cuddles. ^_~

Yeah. I’ll skip my interpersonal obession for a moment. For those who enjoy the read, and think it’s ‘cute’ well it’ll probably be back later. But for a change of pace I’ll do something a little different.

Self Doubt!

Hurray! Oh wait . . . oh nevermind. Yes time for a little artisy self doubt time. I am an aspiring artist I must fill the role right? *ahem* Here I go.

This is one of the several times that I doubt my art. I doubt why I do it and I doubt that it will every turn into anything. To those who have seen it and say I’m crazy for doubting . . . well maybe I am . . . a little. or maybe a lot. I donno. Suffice to say I have been told that artists do art every day. They do it because they have to, it is a compulsion. Then jump to me. Art blog has not been updated in God-only-knows how long. Lots of talk about starting an online comic. And a couple nearly full sketchbooks.

This is not much to go on and is hardly a stellar start. Granted the sketch books a nearly full but I know people who have stacks and stacks and stacks of the damn things filled and over flowing with at least passable art. Most of the stuff is actually quite good! Then I look at mine. I know I know. Don’t compare! But you try it. Show me someone who doesn’t compare themselves to anyone else and I’ll show you a self absorbed idot or God. It like trying to describe the color yellow without saying yellow. Not impossible but frigging hard! But I digress. Do I feel the compulsion to do art? Can I make a living at it? Will I end up at a McJob? ::shudder:: God. Not a Mc Job. Grrrr! Why is it that I have to doubt myself? And if I doubt myself does that mean I am making a mistake? Should I have stuck to English? Should I switch to Creative Writing? ::mutter grumble:: Why is the no answer? ::sigh::

Well at least I now can say that I’m not a complete loser. I actually found a girl that I’m attracted to . . . and she’s attracted to me. I wonder what’s ‘wrong’ with her? ::ducks:: Just joking. I thought I was going to avoid this self doubt/abuse. Oh well.

I’m really not in a bad way . . . but I did need to get that off my chest. That and these spam mails for breast enlargements. What the hell am I, a guy, going to do with brest enlargements? I’m still quite a few years before man boobs. And by the time I get those, enlargements will be the last thing on my mind. Although I really don’t want them in the first place. Icky. Okay. This just got really weird. I’ll let you all go now before I give you mind rot. Take care.

Religious or not I hope you all had a wonderful weekend. Today was especially nice to me. A friend of mine that I don’t get to see that often, usually once a year, came to visit. Yay! It’s not that she lives all that far away . . . but it is just far enough and our schedules are just far enough off that I have trouble fitting time in to visit her. Also her BF takes up a fair amount of her time as well.

But today was different. Today she came to Easter service with her bro-in-law and her cousin. After service we all went to brunch. ^_^ Chevy’s for brunch. Yummy! Then she got to hang out at my house for a while. I got to show her some of my paintings and we watched Thumb Wars. We also were just goofy and grinned a lot. It is very satisfying to make her smile. Well it’s very gratifying to make anyone smile but it’s really fun to make your fiends smile. If you can get them to blush it’s bonus prizes.

Then it was time to take her home. We had to stop at her sister’s to pick up some stuff. Her sister’s kinds are cool. ^_^ I like ‘em. After a short visit we went to her house. Her mom made dinner. enchiladas! w00t! Mexican twice! w00t! w00t! It was kinda funny they were a little surprised that all of them were eating dinner at the same time and at the same table. ^_^ It was fun. Then ::sigh:: it was time to go home.

It sucks when you have someone that you click with that well and then you can’t see them often. We talk on the phone quite often but it’s not the same. It’s a little harder to feed off the energy of the other person out of their presence. ::sigh:: Oh well. I’ll just have to schedule in more time. ^_^ Okay. I go sleepy sleep now. Take care!