A Geekish View of Life

Hey all. It’s not every day but now and again I get reminded of how really horrible I can be. Not in the over arching “Hey! He’s an ass!” sort of way but in the day to day “what an ass” sort of way. Okay here it goes, my little lame story.

Conclusion: Wrong + wrong + wrong = very wrong.

Why does this bother me so? Because I expect more of myself. Also this is the kind of action that comes from the people I despise … and naturally I despise in myself. People wonder why I am self abusive. Well that leads into wrong #4 - I’m selfish and arrogant … which also makes #5. No. I’m not trying to itemize my sins. That would take much too long. But I am noticing a disturbing trend in my behavior. I don’t like it … not at all. It makes it hard to look myself in the eye. The worst part is that the ego abuse is just a perveted form of ego stroking. I still end up focused on myself. I still end up looking and feeling like an ass.

I have tried to make a concerted effort to avoid being an ass. But the more I try … the less I succeed. Well at least that’s how it seems sometimes. Or maybe I’m just too tired for my own good. Meh!

Hey all! I’m sorry I haven’t put stuff up here recently. At the moment I’m not at home, I’m house sitting for some friends. This means that I don’t have my usual connection nor my normally software. Granted I can use the web interface, which I’m doing right now. But they only have dial up so … it takes longer. Plus I have to make a concerted effort to sign on and do it. As some of you know I haven’t been getting as much sleep as I should so I bascially get home, eat dinner, play with the dog, and go to bed. I sometimes have enough energy to do a little TV and homework. But even that is something of a challenge. :;sigh:: Hopefully I’ll get back to a regular sleep schedule soon. Till then please be patient. Gah. Can’t even spell. Okay gotta run to class now. Take care all!

Here’s a quick one from good ol’ Slashdot.

Beer! Healty as wine!

Ugh! I missed my train because of stupid MUNI. Grrrrr. Now I’m tired. I’m going to bed.

That’s right folks! The wondeful woman who brought us D101 is at it again. Another free comic! Hurray! Okay so technically she has had an ongoing project but I still don’t have enough consistant cash to pay for ICE, but one day … I will.

Anyway! The new hotness is Zombies Calling! I like it. I like it alot! Go read. It’s hip! It’s fresh! It’s been recently updated!

Eric Barry, an 18 year old produced playwrite. Granted, he is a self produced, but it is still no less amazing. He is in debt up to his eye balls but apprently the play is pretty good. I haven’t seen it but it should be interesting. His play is Victim of a Mind Trap. You can find a review here.

He’s only 18! I was just getting over my craptastic Junior year when I was 18. Thank God for senior year. He should be aplauded, actually trying to make something of his life! Sir. I commend you!

I am, as some of you know, a Mac fan. As I type this I am, sadly, not on a Mac. I hold no rancor against the Win XP or the PeeCee platform … but there is just something special about the Mac. The Mac haters out there are now snickering and saying under their breath, “Yeah. The Fsking price!” or “An awful lot of power to give to a a one button mouse.” To that I shrug. I have done some price comparisons and what I find is that for the price … the Mac is really a pretty sweet deal. The bundled software alone is worth at least a second look. You’d have to fork over a couple of hundred more dollars, at least, for the iMovie, Apple Works, GarageBand, etc., equivalents. Not that makes the PeeCee less of a computer, just takes more consideration.

There is also the inevitable processor speed debate. The real challenge here is that … well you can’t compare them. The two philosophies are fundamentally different. IBM and Motorola build one way, Intel and AMD do it another. Is one morally superior? No! They accomplish the same tasks, to turn data from one form to another. After that … who really cares? People, stop the flame wars! ::crowd chants:: “What to we want?” “Peace!” When do we want it?” “Now!” This needless dumping is even dumber than any other armed conflict I can think of, past or present. I mean really! The world is getting smaller and more hostile by the minute and people are ranting and freaking out about … what? Fsking computers!!!!! What, in the name of God, is wrong with us?! For Pete’s sake! People are being shot, stabbed, stoned, and killed in all sorts of nasty ways and we see fit to bicker and whine about these silly arguments? GET OVER IT!! For the love of God, STOP! Don’t even go where you think you need to go. It is not worth it, it is not even worth it.

Hm… That was alot further off topic than I planned to be. Back in the real world, this was supposed to be a mention of a neat little blurb for a positive story in Wired about the Beijin Mac User Group. How I got on my little tirade I don’t know. Sorry about that. But I do mean it, we need to keep a little perspective on all this crap. Well enjoy the article and have a great day all!

Oh yes indeedy. Currently my fear is about my comic … well my purposed comic. I’ve been kicking the idea around for quite some time now, as followers of this blog will know. Those, well the three of you, also know that there is, so far no comic. There’s lot of talk. A lot of thinking. And some art. But NO COMIC. Well that’s mostly because I’m a scared little … em … monkey. I want to put it out there … but that’s risky. What if no one likes it? What if they get all uptight about my use of religious themes? What if they think I’m just another bastard trying to tell the world that it’s “Goin’ t’ Hee-allllllll! In a handbasket!” Ack!

I know. One of the precepts of art is that you have to be willing to do it … even if everyone tells you, “you’re wrong, and you need to stop”, “You’re stupid, this comic sucks.”, “I bet you voted for Bush’s second term too didn’t ya!”, or just “You suck.” That’s a who-o-o-o-o-o-o-le lot of flack to try and fly though. There’s no way in hell, or in heaven, that you’re getting though all the spit, venom and self-proclaimed experts without a scratch. That is the nature of art in public, ridicule and acclimation. ::sigh:: I think I could at least be somewhat interesting if I could just do it … but I’m paralysed. I can’t go forward, and I can’t run away, the idea won’t let me. So basically I’m stuck … between the rock and the proverbial hard place. ::groan:: Or maybe I’m just too tired while I write this drivel.

Meh. I going to bed. Take care all.

Jesus saves … and it’s not what you’re thinking. For all the religious gamers out there! or Just those that love a good joke.

LDYR (Labor Day Youth Rally) was great as usual. Highlight is always being able to get away from it all and hang out with friends, and meet new people too. I’m one of the veteran attendies. I have been going to the LDYR since um … well 13 fingers ago. I think I have missed one … and that’s a maybe. My memory gets kinda funny some times. But this one will probably stand out because of some of the personal interactions, that and forgetting my back pack with my glasses in it at the camp when I went home. >

Sleep calls to me. Take care all.