A Geekish View of Life

Hi hi! I would like to fire a shot in the air for a child of the Mozilla project. We all know about Firefox. A lovely wonderful browser. But for those of us in the Mac camp there is an even better option. I know, I know. Firefox is close to the coolest thing since sliced bread, but some of us on older hardware know it to be not so fast and snappy as it can be for our more modern bredren. So what’s a person to do? We want web and we like the Gecko rendering thing. Well I present for your approval Camino!

Camino is an astonishing feat. Not simply because it’s faster than Firefox. No it is a Cocoa native app, that means that it ‘feels’ like OS X apps feel. It looks like OS X. And it has all the features that we wanted out of Firefox! Plus if you’re feeling adventureous, you can try the Camino 1.1 beta! According to the guys a Wired’s Monkey Bites, its gonna give Firefox a run for it’s money.

If any of you have been following this since long ago or have been paging though the archives you’ve probably seen me ponder this before.

Should I continue to be/try to be an artist?

I’m not just trying to black bag myself/dreams/aspirations.  I was talking with my roommate about art stuff and he commented (and I’ve questioned myself on this issue before) that I really don’t seem to enjoy doing art.  I can’t in good If any of you have been following this since long ago or have been paging though the archives you’ve probably seen me ponder this before.

Should I continue to be/try to be an artist?

I’m not just trying to black bag myself/dreams/aspirations. I was talking with my roommate about art stuff and he commented (and I’ve questioned myself on this issue before) that I really don’t seem to enjoy doing art. I can’t in good conscience deny this. I can draw well, people have told me this on several occasions deny this.  I can draw fairly well, people have told me this on several occasions that I have talent. But is that enough? Do I actually enjoy this? I like it better than math … but that’s not saying very much. Do I actually want to do this as a career? Will I want to be doing this in 20 years? I’ve spent countless hours and dollars on learning how to paint and draw, have they been for nothing?

I know this is not the time for self doubt but I don’t know of a better time to be thoughtful. I have things I want to accomplish in my life, but honestly have no idea how to get there. And even if I did get there what would I get for it? Would I actually want to be there? I know one place where I want to be without question. But I cannot get there without achieving some sort of financial solvency first. But I don’t want to be working for a paycheck, no matter how nice, it’s not worth it if I’m basically dead inside. But would it really be much different than I am right now? Am I alive? Am I moving? Am I getting forward? Or have I turned one more pass in this groove in the floor.

The only way out of the groove in the floor is to step out but will I actually be out of the groove? Or will l just make a new one outside of that one or go in the opposite direction?

So many questions. So little time. So little brain power to devote to them.

Should I just try it? Who knows. Can it be worse than not trying? I … guess? Failure really isn’t an option right now. I have too much ahead of me to face plant now. I may end up having to be a ‘bone machine’ for a little while till I can get this worked out. Though being a ‘bone machine’ will not give me the time to work this out which will make it a rut and &((*%%%(*&^$&(*&%(#%#_ I’m going around it again. Meh … figure it out when I wake up.